My first legal drink! #21
i don’t think this needs saying, but like, expect this blog to stay p. silent for an indeterminate amount of time. very occasional postings, but mostly i’m hanging out on my porn blog.
luv u all but i need some time away.
the worst thing about being really sad is that i want to be able to write. like, i feel like i should be channeling all this pent up emotion into poems, but then i am too tired to move and the act of writing sounds exhausting, and i don’t even know what i’d say if i managed to put pen to paper and then i just go back to watching tv and playing fucking kim kardashian hollywood until my eyes rot.
i move from “everything is totally fine what do you mean feelings?” to “i want to die because there is a small problem and i am having an inappropriately intense emotional reaction to it”* in a matter of seconds. i am very powerful and frightening.
hahahahahah im upset this is cool luv it im gonna go cry til i hate myself less
~*~vacation beach house selfie~*~ (at Okracoke Island)
on that bored don’t want to go home no makeup train grind again
In other news, I finished my first for-pleasure book in six months today and started on the second (OITNB) and I feel amazing and I love vacation and I wish I had given myself more than three weeks of it this summer.